Gobble Gobble Give Thanks

Happy Thanksgiving guys! Thanksgiving is so different this year. First off it is a lot louder, and there are grade schoolers running around my living room chasing each other with turkey on their forks. Second, what used to be just my family and one other family has turned into 18 people in our house with a majority I don't know. Yea, I'm a spoiled brat who wishes for some consistency in my Thanksgiving this year haha. Regardless, I am still really thankful for a lot of things and people this year. I know a lot of them don't read this but hey whatever, I just want to put it out there! :)

Family- I love my family. Parents, sibling, cousins, the whole nine yards. You guys are awesome, and together we make such and awesome team hehehe.

O-Family- My other family! I love you guys so much. Our crazy hail week practices, our random outings. Karaoke at karaoke or karaoke in the car and serenading the girls while we drop them off at their dorms. We are truly awesome and I love every moment we spend together whether I'm really cranky in the morning or we're just being completely ridiculous and wacky. You guys bless me in so many ways and I don't think I tell you guys that enough <3

The Tripod!- I think we may have sprouted another leg this year but regardless, I love you guys. Our Halo-ing, our random talks, and stupid things that we do. You guys got my back even when I'm completely stressed and out of my mind. It was the best of times and it was the worst of times. You guys are there at all times!

The Tasty Noms Crusaders (real nickname pending)- haha we only just started having our dinners, and our random midnight movie premiere outings, but I feel a need to list you guys in here. You guys are the part of life that keeps me sane during school/stress/whatever is bugging me. Cooking, splurging on food, getting fat, and watching movies. It's a feel good kind of thing we got going and I love experimenting with food and sharing food/ conversations/ our lives with each other! :D Let's keep it going!

The Joon- I love you man. I legit love you no homo. We've been through so much and I love how no matter how much time has passed we always call each other to keep up and share. I know you always got my back no strings attached.

The Meena- My confidante. Meena I love how we just have our random conversations all these years and how we find joy by living through each other vicariously at times! I'm so happy I've gotten to see so much more of you this year. It makes me happy that we are able to keep up with each other more :).

The Cabinet- Haha you guys know who you are. You guys are my advisors, and some of my closest friends. We talk all the time about everything and nothing, and we share prayer requests. You put up with my random rants, and we watch each other grow as time goes on :). I cherish you guys a lot for the talks we have and the time we've spent jamming, watching shows/movies, totally bumming around. :D. Love you all!

and saving the best for last!!!!!!..

The Girlfriend- haha yes I am a sap and I am mad cheesy for putting you last on this list, and yes, I already have told you today how thankful I am for you and why I am thankful for you. Jo, you're are one of my best friends and we definitely have been through a lot together. We've seen each other at our best and our worst... at least so far hehe. I love the way we can be completely honest with one another about pretty much anything. We are pretty freaking awesome <3.

... okay I'm not completely done.

A Prayer of Thanks.

God, You've been moving like crazy in my life this semester. Yea there have been a lot of rough patches but I've definitely learned so much this term. I've learned about You, about me, and my faith, and what I need to do to grow and evolve. Recently, You've taught me a little more about how to stress less about life, and my relationships with others and that as long as I single mindedly (<-- yes I realize that's not a word.)and whole heartedly look to you, You will deliver me from whatever is bothering me. You constantly deliver great things in to my life and You deliver me from evil. I love you.

Amen! I hope all of you guys got fat and can't move!

Send Me A Sign, A Hint, O Whisper

Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control!

Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control!!

Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control!!!

Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control!!!!

More and more, I find myself going back to the basics. Someone called me out on it for not growing because of reviewing it, but I think there's always something more by going back and listening to what He has to say each time :). There's so much uncertainty and doubt in life sometimes... scratch that... ALL THE TIME. Our school, work, relationships, and future... whatever it may be. Somewhere deep down, it eats at all of us and for me it bugs the living daylights out of me.

When I start to worry about things, my mind kind of kicks into overdrives and starts snowballing.

Why am I so impatient?

What is going to happen next?

Why can't I just be the better man and love this person?

Where do I draw the line?

Why can't I just be a little more understanding and sympathetic towards others?

How come I feel really selfish when I'm being told otherwise?

How come there are so many contradictions going on in my head?

All the little things look so big from down here. And yea I sound a little neurotic but as I prayed, I felt like God was smacking me upside the head and telling me that I'm not asking for the right things. "Try again," He says. Sometimes whats necessary is the basics so one can rebuild oneself within Him. Character revamp lets go!

At the Top of My Lungs

i want to go somewhere i can just rest my head a little bit.

somewhere i can yell, scream, curse, and no one can hear me.

somewhere with water so that the noises around me drown out my voice and my head.

why am i worrying so much?

instead of praying for more faith so i stop worrying, im praying for answers. fail.